where are You now?

the feeling of being empty, and not filled. restore me, revive me.

it's hard to be home. seriously. i know everyone always says that, but we built relationships that ould only endure through You and through Your mission field at YL. you know what i miss? the fellowship. the companionship. i know that seems like something t odescribe with a dog, but we literally suffered so much with each other. it's so hard going through 3 weeks of everything, to the rest of our lives in separate communities. i just pray that we will be united by You Father constantly. i remember the second night there when we played the get to know you game with the playing cards, and i remember the day we left. when the people who flew to NY left, it wasn't quite clear we were leaving. sitting with Caroline and Chick at the very end, reminiscing on the time we had spent there.. the family we had made. what the heck God, where is that? i just wanna run back to my wc2k11 family and be with those believers. is that selfish? is that me living for myself? i pray Lord that you continue to apply the things i learned at Champion, back here at home. continually showing me what it's like to love limitlessly, to be raw with other people, and to consumed with a passion to serve You. You deserve so much Lord, but i put my service humbly before Your throne in awe and with gratitude of Your name. Holy Holy Holy is the Lord God Almighty, forever and ever. i pray over each individual, that they know You are there for them, and that we will forever have that family connection. in Your precious name,

Amen.